I dont remember her, "Heather KIllebrew", at all. I know it seems weird, but I don't.
I know it all seems weird, but it is a fact, I don’t know the person that I have all this information about, with my stroke I lost a big chunk of my memory and this person, Heather Killebrew, is part of that memory loss. I know there’s a matter involving her and I which is going on and I know there is history with her, my boys and family tell me, but do I remember any of it or her, NO!! I have no idea, none.
I read these horrible emails and messages and awful things, which this person, Heather Killebrew, has sent me, I don’t remember her or any of this stuff at all.
As Cart likes to tell me, what was lost in the stroke needs to stay lost in the stroke, and that time that is missing, is better that is missing and is lost for good.
Cart has a way of talking to me, so, I can understand. He has been amazing and I am so proud of him. He sees me and is with me constantly and knows I’m nowhere near the same.
I am a very prideful, proud person, which makes these things difficult for me, but truth is truth, a stroke is a serious brain injury which causes brain damage. I have been brain damaged as sustained suffered a significant brain injury and it’s going to take a long time for it to heal, 12-18 months.
I know I’m not the same and I’m not all there or with it. My left eye was impacted and affected and everything to the left of me is blurry and out of focus and causes me to be so unsure of anything to the left of me. I still can’t feel most of the left side of my body. I just feel pressure but that’ll get better over time. The swelling goes down. As far as my eyesight goes, it may or may not and I’ve been told with the type of stroke I had most of the time it doesn’t improve much, but we will have to wait and see.
2:16 AM 01/18/25
